For the past few weeks, i have been through multiple crossroads. Being at a crossroad is a good thing, for i am able to have a chance to take a different path and experience other way of life. Despite spending the effort to really reconsider my life, nothing has really changed. There is everything but change. It is not that i have decided to remain in the same path, rather, decision has almost alway been decided before i can make my own. Just when i know i can apply for scholarship, the application date is closed and when application is open again, i will not be eligible anymore. With this, Crossroad number 1 gone. Crossroad number 2: NPCC. Got a mail stating that there is a new HO attached to my unit. I thought i could finally handover all the duty to him and say byebye to a dying passion. And as it turns out...... He may not be one whom i can really rely on and he may have other agenda instead of serving the unit with passion. Secondly, ATC and STC is in a total mess. In fact mess is an under statement. I believe the younger generation really forget how to write the word "die". Somehow someday, someone have to really teach them how to write "die". Before this is settled, crossroad number 2 will be sealed off also. Crossroad number 3, Shi. Should i confess or not? I have confirmed that she is the kind of girl i wanted and her personality really captured my heart. But now she is having multiple problems and is also at a crossroad. Anything i do, will only make her life more difficult. I have been restraining myself from going over the boundary of being a friend. Restrain until going crazy liao, almost going to resort to using a rope to tie myself up. Hmm... at least this crossroad is not closed yet..... i can still hope for an alternative path....
Bucsu at previous
next
* * * *  * * * *
|
